Friday, 18 January 2008

No Pink Today......

It's not like me to post something so devoid of pinkness and frillyness....but today i am feeling very un-frou frou like and mostly blue...not pink at all.

You see a week or so ago i made the decision to offer my horse for sale to the lady who leases him....big decision...it took some real strength on my part.
The reason being that i know in my heart i will never ride him again. For those who dont know i had a bad fall a few years back, then some other problems with my back to follow...resulting in surgery. Even though i wasnt told to 'Never ride a horse again', something inside me tells me not to. My fear is having another accident and doing more permanent damage to my back.....damage that may prevent me from ever running around crazy again with Sam, picking him up in my arms for a big "Guts Squeeze" as he calls it......stuff like that.
And so, i made the choice.....my family and my life are more important.

So today the lady (Sue) is coming over with the money......i am dreading it...i keep watching the clock and my stomache is in knots... It makes it so official you know....this beautiful big animal whos been in our family for 11 years.....now he will legally belong to someone else.
Gosh im crying as im typing.
Anyone who is an animal lover will understand this im sure.....imagine that little furry friend who's sitting on your lap now or curled up at your feet...imagine them gone.....its a heart breaker.

I know i am doing the right thing, Kobi (my horse) has been at Sues for 2 years now and she adores him...its where he now belongs....but will someone please just tell my heart that.

Ok sorry to ramble on and put a damper on things, thats so not like me is it.

I guess i just needed to get it out, write it all down and for a friend to re-assure me that the sun will come out tomorrow.

Thanks for reading my lovely sweet friends.....

Big Hugs,
Shann

Heres my boy...oh cant i still say hes mine for just a little while longer..??

27 comments:

joan said...

Oh Shannon, I'm so sorry. I know how hard this must be for you and he is a beautiful horse. It sounds like he'll be well cared for though and I'm sure that makes you feel better. I'm sending lots of hugs your way today.

Southern Lady's Vintage said...

Awwww....sweet, sweet Shannon. I am so sorry that you are sad. The sun truly will come up tomorrow. I know this was a very hard decision for you to make. Dry those tears and hold your head up and know that all will be ok.
Luv ya,
Barbara

Dolly said...

Yes sweetpea it is the right thing to do!
Please find comfort in knowing Kobi is in good hands and you can always go visit anytime!

Sending BIG HUGZZZZZZ,
Now turn that frown upside down and SMILE!

Luvs ya,
Dolly

Sophie Rose Designs said...

I'm so sorry about this, Shannon. Just take comfort in the fact that he's happy and healthy and that you can still go and see him....he's a beautiful animal.

*Big Hugs* Dara

PurpleFlowerFairy said...

awww shannon, i totally understand. just keep reminging yourself that he is going to a happy new home to someone who loves him and will take great care of him =) i'm sure you can visit once in awhile. you have a right to feel "blue". hugs, debbie

PurpleFlowerFairy said...

whoops! i sure make a lot of typos on blog posts =) i didn't mean for you to "reminging" yourself - lol! i meant "reminding"... more hugs! debbie

Laurie said...

My heart aches for you Shannon! I know how hard this has been for you. I'm sending a big Alaskan hug your way.

Laurie

Gail McCormack said...

Hi Shann...oh you know me sooky la la! but why on earth can't you visit him, I'm sure Sue wouldn't mind at all, he doesn't know he's been sold, he'll never know the difference as long as you visit him every now and again. I'm not sure if this is right but I think it's fairer for him to be with someone who can ride and exercise him? You've done the right thing and if you weren't feeling sad it wouldn't be normal, that heart of yours will be singing its pink song in no time!

Peta said...

Shannon, so sorry about your boy. I hope you can still visit him. Hugs, Peta

Alison Gibbs said...

Hi Shann, sorry you had to make such a heartwrenching decision but you know it is the right one. maybe go visit him once in a while.
Alison

Amy at Bunny Rose Cottage said...

Oh Shannon, I am so sorry :( What a hard decision to make. He is beautiful! I just love horses. We have them in our backyard. Will she still let you visit him? Big hugs being sent to you!!

Love you,
Amy

Lori said...

Shannon, Hugs and smooches to you! I know you have such a big loving heart that is breaking now, please take care, Love, Lori

Sue said...

I have tears for you too!! At least he is going to someone you already know , and loves him, and has been caring for him. You can still visit him,knowing he is getting plenty of exercise, but not have to pay vet bills!It wont be any different to him as long as he is still getting hugs from you!It is a GOOD thing, be happy for him, and smile through your tears...
Sue

Katrina said...

Thinking of you today! Hope you had an ok day yesterday!!

Kerryanne English said...

Hi Shan,
I don't think there is much I can add that hasn't already been said by your supportive and caring blog friends, so I will just give you the BIGGEST, tightest cyber hug ever. ooops....hope i didn't break anything.
Love and hugs,
Kerryanne

Kerryanne English said...

Hi Sweets,
I have given you an AWARD - check my blog.
Hugs,
Kerryanne

Sarah said...

Hi Shannon,,
I know exactly how you feel. I sold my beautiful mare just after I met my hubby. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but it was also one of the best things that I did for her. She went on to do really well in dressage & had a foal, something I didn't have time (or money) to do at that stage. Think fondly of the great times you shared together & remember that they will be in your heart forever. Your Kobi will be greatly looked after by the lady buying him & that to me is in itself a lovely feeling...
Have a great weekend,
Love & Hugs,
Sarah xx

KARA said...

sweetpea, I wish I was there to give you a hug and make you feel better.
I love you dearly and am so sad that you had to make this decision, I totally understand and am sure you have made the right choice.
Love you dearly and if you need me just email
xox

joan said...

Hi Shannon,

Hope you are doing better today. Just wanted to tell you I gave you an award so come on over when you have the chance.

Mandii said...

To my Sweet Gal Pal!! I can totally undertstand how you feel sweets, but he is only ever a car ride away if you need a cuddle!! I have given you an award sweet's and you really do make my day!!Will call ya 2morrow! Love ya lots Mands

jules said...

Poor Poor Shann i ache for you.He will always be yours in your heart of hearts.You are a good mummy to worry about being there for Sam.Sensible is sometimes a very brave hard thing to be.Hope your pinkness comes back soon to chase the blues away.
Hugs
Jules

MelsRosePlace said...

HI Shannon, i know how you are feeling. I sold my horse when i was about 16 as i had become too busy to ride him and even though he went to a great home i felt terrible. Sounds like you are doing the right thing though and hopefully you can go and visit him all you want to ! hugs, Mel xxx

Adeline's Shabby Cottage said...

Poor Shannon!! What an awful decision to have to make. As a mom, I can totally understand though. It sounds like he will be with a loving owner and maybe you can go visit him. Giving you a big cyber hug anyway though!!

:)Brittany

p.s. I left you a little something over at my place

Linda and Laura Lilly Cottage said...

Hi Shannon, now you have me crying too! He will always belong to you, in your heart and good memories and now you have given someone else the pleasure of the same sort of experience...it's a good thing really. Big kiss noises Linda Lilly Cottage.

Chantilly Cottage said...

OH Shannon... So sorry to hear of the hard decision you have made, it sounds like it was the right decision even though it was so tough, you will have the wonderful memories of your times together.
Keep you chin up and take care.
Hugs.. Deb xx

Stephanie said...

Sweet Shann, I'm crying for you, too. Kobi is just beautiful. I know your feelings. I had a small Shetland pony when I was young & when we moved, I had to sell him to a little friend of mine. Funny, I never thought of her as a friend after that ~ silly little 7 yr. old me. But everytime we would go back to visit my grandparents, we would pass where Pal then lived & I would always pray that I could see him as we drove by. It takes a while, but you will feel better about your decision. May God help heal your aching heart.

BIG HUGS!
Stephanie
Angelic Accents

Tracie said...

Oh Shann,
I feel for you so very much.
You're doing the right thing for yourself and for beautiful Kobi. He knows his surroundings and Sue ~ you've given him the best gift anyone could - love.

Beautiful picture, that's one lucky horse, two times over - living the good life, how happy that makes you, as any animal lover gets it!

Take care,
Tracie